full plate & i'm stuffed

Why did I think going to school and working full time was going to be a fun idea? I feel like there's never any time.. I want to go to the gym, I want to go tanning, I want to use up my yoga sessions, I want to go grocery shopping, I want to clean my room, I want to watch a movie, I want to take a nap, I want to read a book, I want to stare at the wall.... BUT I CANT. I have to wake up and watch the kids, I have to shower, I have to sit in traffic on the way to work, I have to work for 8+ hours 5 days a week, I have to sit in traffic to get home, I have to eat dinner, I have to give tuxedo attention, I have to open a book and study, I have to log onto Blackboard and see what assignments are due next, I have to school, school, school.... THEN sleep a couple hours, and do it all over again. I miss my friends, I miss taking tuxedo on walks, I miss watching tv, I miss being on the computer snooping around on peoples pages and not typing up assignments, I miss sleeping. I look at my planner and see the daily squares and all I see is black ink.. with crap to do on every day. I want empty squares. I miss empty squares.